god is trying to play games with me again.. he’s f…
June 5, 2006, 2:26 am
Filed under: Uncategorized

god is trying to play games with me again.. he’s fucking up my life.. yet again.. after taking from me.. the only man i ever loved.. and giving him to another.. i fell to pieces.. i thought i already picked myslef up and put me back together again.. i thought god couldn’t possibly hurt me more than that.. but..

i am completely wrong. god is again.. fucking up my life… and i am helping him.

serves me right.. because i am evil. i do not know love. i only know hatred. vengeance is the only thing that keeps me alive. it pains me though because the person i thought who is incapable of hurting me.. was able to kill my soul and break my spirit. and it has remained broken since.

i am not much of a writer.. and i am too much of a liar.. to deserve anyone who would completely put their faith in me.. and and truly, love me.. for whoever i am.. and whoever i turn out to be.

right now…

i stand to lose this machine and possibly my job along with it.. but i am left to pay for the bills that this misadventure hath brought upon me. my reckless behavior led to my own downfall.

and from the look of things.. there is no where else to go.. but down.

after i thought i started to believe in fairy tales again.. after i thought that one day.. i will be happy… i should grow up.. happily ever after MY ASS.. ever after.. after what? everything? what is everything?

per chance.. is it DEATH?

if death is the ultimate end of everything.. when is mine?


Leave a Comment so far
Leave a comment

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: