just to feel~

but, is it really necessary? to subject the one you love to pain, just so they can feel again?

walking aroudn teh mall, he couldn’t help but notice a pair leaning near the railing, the boy’s arms were wrapped around the girl. when most people saw “awww SWEET~” he saw “a boy with his arms around his girl”

but what i saw was, an expiration DATE.sure, it would be nice to hug someone, but in a place like this at a time like that~ w00t, i could be doing other things like walking around, talking, looking at the world. observing life. making time count. gathering memories~ and not locking myself in the grasp of the man who supposedly loves me.

trivial.. too trivial~

or maybe there isn’t really an ounce of romantic blood inside me.
maybe what runs in my veins is, indeed, GASOLINE.

“So when will this end
It goes on and on
And over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it wont stop
Till I step down from this
“

hit meh~

“what i didn’t know, is i was killing you, i said a lot of things that i didn’t mean to~”

about words. about words that come out of my foul mouth. about words i say. about plans i make. about promises i break.

my word is not the absolute truth. i make plans. i do. then they don’t push through. but thing is, i only speak of plan a-c.. regardless of the existence of plan up to z. its called murphy’s law. if things can go wrong, they will. it keeps my feet firmly on the ground even when my head is in the clouds. i am fully aware of the fact that i have no control over anything in the world. all i can do is constantly adjust to my surroundings. and hold on. and do something about it. do what i can. things will change, eventually.

lose your favor, milord?

i wish i knew my child.. i wish i knew.

*sobs* all i ever wanted was your approval…

you always had it. can’t you see it? you always had my approval.. i always had high regard for you my child. always. it never ebbed.

then why am i so scared?

perhaps you’re scared of loneliness. all of us are. but it’s alright, i am here.

but i thought.. i thought you weren’t.

i am… but it never shows.

…

drag on..

i hate morning shifts.. morning shifts is for the weak.

i’m missing my 10pm to 6am shift. this fucking blows…

i hate the rain.

i hate bloodlines. people blame blood for things that happen. blame isn’t meant to go anywhere but deep inside all of us. so we can do something about it.

is now level 24

thanks to the friends she found:

Izumii
ryli3
SummonWizard
jesse4444

thank’s for the help ^_^

not only is she stronger now.. she’s also richer by thousands of mesos ^_^

“hi, my name is MARIA, how may i help you today?”

that’s my spiel now at work. it used to be “my name is KAYE/KATRINA” but it just doesn’t cut as much as MARIA.

although, my people call me tikoy outside o phone calls.

because the tikoy is rare. they will remember that name.the probability of someone else in the building having the same name (tikoy) is less than 1%. it gives me even more pressure now, to perform better at work so as not to compromise the sanctity of the hallowed name of the TIKOY.

“remember my name?”

and WEEKENDS @ wacha’s

been a while since i last went to this place and actually played with my RFO account (not the test server, and NOT maple story).

i’ve decided to powerlevel today. but as fate would have it, my game load ran out. tough luck. it’d prolly be a long time before i play with that account again. but hey, the wait is well worth it.

Voluptuous~

that’s the last thing i ever thought my classmates would call me.

unless of course they mean voluptuous as in fat.